$277.00

okay so my dad left to vietnam already.... GEEZ says he'll be there for a month. i doubt so. says hes there to "relax." i know what he does. says ALL THESE CRAP. and my mom made me think possibly considering it more the chances, when before i would think of it and just ignore it cause it's like.. whatever, but now my mom tells me?! and it seems like there's a better chance of that happening. and it sickens me. they wouldn't mean a thing to me, but the thought of it is like just weird... this whole thing is weird. he's weird!!! i wish my mom was richer so that we can get out, and then it'd be okay. but i dont see that happening anytime soon. it's scary i guess i could say that's how i feel. and it frustrates me too! there's even more to it and.. ugh. this whole jumble is a mess. where are you tammy? i wish you were here. it's better off to talk to you in person then over the phone. as for other people i'm losing in touch with my close friends.. just some of them. or what i'm saying is i lose that feeling that i'm able to talk to them. it's like no... i cant tell them these stuff because i dont feel like telling them..? who knows. i just cant wait to get all this shiz out of my head. i do a good job of it though. but eventually it's like a pattern. builds up and then it explodes. then builds up again. i don't mean to sound "dramatic" or whatever but.. how else can you put it?


i have 277 dollars with me. i know where the money is stacked.. pretty clever actually.

i cant wait for summer shakedown. 10 dollars will be worth it, i really really hope so. it'll be the highlight of the week, cause after that it's a working weekend. i hate you school. why do i always have to try to get good grades. why?!